I am feeling both abandoned and guilty of abandoning others... I feel like I am scrambling for purchase to avoid a huge fall, and I am grabbing at all the wrong things... thanks for choosing the airport Hilton... we will start with the daywalker... yes, these are South Park references thrown into my otherwise somewhat serious and contemplative thoughts... I miss having a close circle of friends, and while I understand some of the reason for our current state, I still struggle with the loss of my closeness with each of them... my fear is killing me... my obsession is killing me... Zildjian is a funny word... happy birthday sister... I'm going down to South Park going to have a real good time...